Tuesday, November 25, 2008

vague....by C.B.

Who knew….who knew what people thought of you?

Did you know that after you left…

Two years of snow covered ground and bees

Two years of the seasons….bugs, and decay

Of your dreams….of your house…

Of the security that you wanted to wrap your self in

Of the frozen Christmas cookies left in a tin….

hiding in the bottom of the Maytag….

that still stands there...running...alone...

Who knew that someone else….in a world

Far, far away… would light up at the mention of

Your name…of the memory of your glory…

of an invisible fame...





Yes, my dear, dear love….yet another…

Another dim Alter…

far from the candle wax that burns…

as it drips down the wall…as it engulfs this

memory darkened hall…

my aorta…clogging

my valves ...

with trinkets and old photos…

paper thin hands and dump perfumes…

but not for you!…

And, you were so beautiful…that someone

would rise from deathbed

and wrap their hair… for you …



who thought yourself absurd….



tiny orphan...child of a crime,

of passion and insanity…

Watching, with pain, the beloved blood that dripped from my arms…

The same angry blood that ran in daddy’s Sioux veins…

And out of the back of mother’s tired, poverty- stricken Irish head.




You…on hands and knees…cleaning house for

The rich…for the kids in the cafeteria…

For him…from job to job….to job… always standing

behind…



and he was there today too…

he made her eyes lighten…he was a star…

beautiful and bright,

And she looked at me like I was the royalty…

That sprang from his thighs…but him,

he knew…



and so did you…



but only about him because we are homonyms…

and there are more similarities than

the pronunciation of the name…

and the way that we stand behind the stars…

that we hold so close…to make the world

a little more beautiful…loud...confident....and lovely…

as they shine through our shyness...guiding our way.



But you, my dear, dear love,

were not my star….you were the candle that lit my way…

untill the candle flickered out...

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